What would you do when you make same mistakes again and again while seriously being alert. Fuck yourself? I don’t know how to do that, so I will brag about it here.
I’ve been messing up things very often since few days. I make mistakes everywhere. At home, office And very silly mistakes. I regularly fucked up something in office. Even after being warned couple of times. If I were my boss, I would have kicked myself out. Or maybe not, I’m very kind. I said this to my girl. She thinks I’m making these silly mistakes because I don’t want to work there. Well, that is definitely not the reason. I love this place, I’m learning a lot. And I love to learn. She thinks I am not made for job or I can’t work at all. I only can talk to her in phone and talk endlessly about some nonsense and hike and eat all the day and watch TV all the time and browse thousands of pages of Wikipedia and listen classical and rock crap songs. But there are something else which is too private to share here which are bothering me and not giving me enough time to sleep resulting memory malfunction.
Am I making any sense here? or am I still not back to the sense?
I want to hide for some days and get back with refreshed mind.
The bottom line is, I AM NEEDING SERIOUS HELP!
